Whether you’re ready for it or not, life goes on. When one chapter comes to an end, another one is usually only beginning. Some say, “as one door closes and another door opens”. They both mean the same thing. For every end, there is a new beginning. I’ve realized that a whole new chapter had begun in my life while I’ve been stuck rereading the old one – or staring at that closed door. But part of life is learning to letting go.
Over the past year, I’ve stopped sharing my blog posts. It wasn’t because they were unwritten or incomplete… Instead, I felt like the blog theme I had began so many years ago and blog posts I was writing over this past year were clashing. When I started lotsoflovelara, I was in my high school matric year (2014). My first blog post only came out in the middle of my first year at university. During this time, I felt surrounded by negativity and criticisms. So I started a blog to share some love and passion with the world. That’s the person I defined myself as – loving and passionate. During my high school career I like to think of myself as living in a little bubble, semi-oblivious to societal problems. This meant that while I was aware that SA politics were a mess and that people in SA were constantly struggling, I didn’t really engage fully with these problems because I thought they didn’t concern me. So hence, my world was loving, carefree and happy-go-lucky.
Did this change the types of blog I was writing? Did this mean that I was no longer allowed to be carefree and bubbly and happy all the time?
The person I am now still writes about her everyday experiences. However, more and more this includes conversations about women’s safety on UCT campus; ways to combat gender-based violence; conversations about how I can build a life in a country overrun by corruption and a failing economy. These concerns and conversations have become more prevalent and are things I think people need to hear about. Themes such as these do not align with the lotsoflovelara brand.
I hope to create a new space which allows me to grow and that will grow with me in a way that lotsoflovelara did not allow. Through concluding lotsoflovelara, I hope to be able to begin again – with a new blog.
so keep your eyes peeled, because exciting things are still coming…
Lots of love x